以莉莎法·以利亚呼的见证
Elisheva Eliyahu Testimony
我（以莉莎法）面对面看见了亚呼赎阿.哈.玛西阿克！
I Saw YAHUSHUA, Face to Face!
我活得并不是很轻松，但是我的主亚呼赎阿跟我说过，"不要为妳的过去感到羞耻，但要借着妳过去的经历，把荣耀归给亚呼赎阿，为祂作见证带领灵魂归向亚呼赎阿。"My life has not been an easy one, but the LORD YAHUSHUA gave me a word and HE said, "Be not ashamed of your past but use it for YAHUSHUA'S glory to be a witness for HIM, bringing souls to YAHUSHUA."
我从未体验母亲或父亲的爱，亦或兄弟姊妹、阿姨叔叔、表亲或祖父母的爱。I have never known a mother's or father's love, or that of a sister or brother, aunt or uncle, cousin, or grandma, and grandpa.
我在这个世上一直都非常孤独，但我知道神是存在的，而亚呼赎阿则是一个两千多年在各各他山死去的某人。I have suffered much loneliness in my life, but I knew there was a GOD and YAHUSHUA...that HE was someone that died 2,000 years ago at Calvary.
没有人告诉我祂可以成为我最好的朋友，或告诉我祂的圣灵可以住在我里面，又或是我不需要变得完美才能得到亚呼赎阿的爱。No one ever told me HE could be my best friend and HIS HOLY SPIRIT would live in me or that I didn't have to be perfect for YAHUSHUA to love me.
我常常被论断，因为我什么人也不是。我没有家人，有的只是一个会虐待我、忽视我、试图谋杀我而被送进监狱里去的母亲。I was judged because I was a nobody in this world, no family, and a mother that was sent to jail for child abuse and child neglect and attempted murder on me.
我被寄养家庭扔来扔去，我在那时深怕不顺服他们。我试著成为每个人想要的样子，但又觉得我不属于任何地方。I was thrown from one foster home to another, afraid to disobey, and trying to be everything everyone wanted me to be, but always feeling like I didn't belong anywhere.
当每个新的寄养家庭失去一开始的新鲜感时，我就成了一个在星期五被社工捡起的垃圾。我妈以前常说我不值得任何人来爱我。As soon as the newness wore off at the foster homes, I was discarded like the garbage on Friday, picked up by a social case worker. My mom always said I was not worthy of anyone to love me or care.
我曾是那颗带其他人一起腐烂的"烂苹果"。
I was the rotten apple that spoiled the rest.
我从孩时就受过母亲的丈夫们、男朋友们、继兄们的性虐待、性骚扰、也被强奸过，当然也包括她。她恨我，我记得她从未抱过我。
I was sexually abused, molested, raped as a child by my mother's ex-husbands, boyfriends, step-brothers, and of course, by her. She hated me and never so much as put her arms around me that I can remember.
我从很小的时候，就学到不要相信任何人。我在很小的时候，就讨厌我自己和我的生命。我在小时候多次试图自杀，或走在飞梭的车前。我在八岁时服药过量。 I learned very young not to trust anyone. I learned very young that I hated myself and life. I attempted suicide many times while still a young child, walking in front of moving cars, overdosing pills at the age of 8.
我受过很多的伤害。在我十岁的时候，我母亲的男朋友有一个侄子，之后他成了我的前夫。他的控制欲很强、冷淡又疏远，甚至大我很多岁。Much damage had been done to me, so at the age of 10, my mother's boyfriend had a nephew and introduced my ex-husband, who was very controlling, cold, distant and much older than me.
我母亲想要把我扔掉，因为我是她越来越老的证明。My mother wanted to get rid of me; I was a constant reminder she was getting older as I got older.
我从她的身边被带走，成了受法庭直接监护的儿童。因为他们不知道要拿我怎么办，所以我就在很年轻的时候就结了婚。I was taken from her and became a ward of the court and because they didn't know what else to do with me, I married at a very young age.
我的前夫成了我的父亲，也因为我们年龄上的差别，他在每件事情上都支配了我，我就像一件他拥有的物品，不知爱是何物，在身心灵上受到了比从前更严重的伤害和性虐待。 My ex-husband became my father, and because of the age difference, he totally dominated me in every way, yet I was a possession not knowing love, only abuse in a worse form, both mentally and physically, sexually.
长话短说，我在结婚第一周的时候曾经打算自杀，因为他有了外遇。这就是我接下来六年的生活，并在流产、尝试自杀、崩溃之间流离，直到我找到了亚呼赎阿──或者应该说是亚呼赎阿找到了我。I won't go into details but the first week we were married, I attempted suicide because he committed adultery. After that (between miscarriages, suicide attempts, and breakdowns), that was my life for 6 years till I found YAHUSHUA.... or I should say YAHUSHUA found me.
我最后一次试图自杀，是因为我的前夫又有了外遇。在他说他不会再回来后，我吞了一瓶速可眠（100毫克）。这是我最濒临死亡的体验，我的灵魂甚至出了窍。The last suicide attempt, I had taken a bottle of Seconal (100mgs) after my ex-husband had cheated on me once again and said he wasn't coming back. I came the closest I ever came to dying... even had an out of body experience.
当时我躺着等死，作了以下的祷告："亚呼赎阿，告诉我为什么你不在把我丢进地狱前爱我？请在我临死前送个人来握着我的手。" I won't go into that but I will say I prayed while I lay dying and said quote, "YAHUSHUA, just tell me why YOU didn't love me before YOU throw me into Hell?
Please just send someone to hold my hand while I am dying."
我永远都不会忘记这个祷告。我在那里从中午躺到午夜，这还是我生日的三天前。在清醒和昏迷之间，清醒的时候我只会呕吐，然后躺在我的呕吐物中继续昏迷。 I will never forget that prayer cause I lay there from noon till midnight, three days from my birthday, between consciousness and unconsciousness, only reviving long enough to vomit, and lay in my vomit as I passed out again.
至今没有人知道警察是怎么找到我的！那是个奇迹！他们破门而入，而亚呼赎阿一直都在那里回答我的祷告。虽然我并不知道，但祂握住了我的手。How anyone found me NO ONE understands to this day! It was a miracle but the police broke down the door, and YAHUSHUA was there all along answering my prayer, holding my hand though I did not know it. 我被放在72小时的特别监护室中，但除了护士以外没有人来看我。我没有访客，甚至连我的前夫也非常地生气，他拒绝来探望我，他说他不得不为我的医疗费而工作。I was put in intensive care and 72 hour round the clock watch, but no one was there to watch me, except nurses. No visitors; even my ex-husband was angry and refused to visit me, saying he had to work to pay the hospital bill I caused.
我没有留下自杀遗言，所以我的前夫强迫医院把我交给他。我当时甚至还未成年。我回家的那一天是我的生日，四月四日，那本来应该是我会被埋葬的日子，那天也是复活节。I didn't leave a suicide note, so my ex-husband forced the hospital to release me to his custody. I was still underage.
When I came home, it was on my birthday April 4, the day I should have been buried. It was Easter time also.
我心碎了，没有人在乎那天是我的生日。我试图在我出院的当天自杀，但是我的前夫把枪拿走了。I was so heartbroken; no one cared it was my birthday. I tried to take my life the day I was released from hospital but my ex-husband took the gun away.
一个急诊医生告诉我，"当妳下次试图自杀的时候，如果想死得快就要站在火车前面，身体会被撞得碎烂，没人可以捡起完整的部份"。我相信是撒但把这个医生派到了我的身边来。 I had an ER doctor who told me the next time I wanted to kill myself, do it right and walk in front of a train where no one will be able to pick up the pieces. I am convinced that satan sent that doctor to me.
我在一年后记起了那个医生的话，我们刚好住在郊外的火车轨道附近，于是我打算照着他的话做。但是亚呼赎阿却有其他的计划。One year later, I remembered that doctor's words and that's what I intended to do since we lived out in the country by the railroad tracks. But instead YAHUSHUA had other plans.
我打算自杀的当晚，我前夫的一个朋友给我打了个电话（她和他一起长大的，后来在假装领他归向主时与他通奸），她邀请我去参加五旬节教会，这还是我的第一次。A friend of my ex-husband (a lady he knew and grew up with, and later committed adultery with while she pretended to lead him to the LORD) called me on the phone the night I planned on killing myself and invited me to my first Pentecostal church.
我进去教会跟神说再见，猜想祂大概会在那里。
I went to say goodbye to GOD, figuring maybe HE would be there.
但相反的，牧师被感动，说了"知识的言语"。他说有人想要自杀，但耶稣〔亚呼赎阿〕想跟那个人说"不要这么做！祂爱那个人，想要为自己的荣耀使用他！" Instead, the preacher gave a word of knowledge and talked about someone who planned on killing them self and telling that person, "YAHUSHUA said don't do it!", HE loved that person, and wanted to use them for HIS glory.
牧师问那个人是谁，要他们走到前面来，把他们的生命交给亚呼赎阿。我就这么做了！然后他说还未得着受圣灵洗礼凭据的方言恩赐的人请举起手来。He asked who that person was and to come forward and give their life to YAHUSHUA. I DID! Then he asked who didn't have the baptism of the HOLY GHOST with evidence of speaking in tongues to raise their hand. 我举起我的手说："我不知道那是什么，不过如果是亚呼赎阿所赐下的恩赐的话，我就想要那种恩赐！"I raised my hand and said "I don't know what it is but if it's from YAHUSHUA, I want it!"
哇，我真的得到了！亚呼赎阿以光明开了我的眼，说我不能再恨自己了，因为祂的圣灵已经在我里面居住了，如果我恨自己的话，也代表我恨祂。Boy, did I get it! YAHUSHUA showed me a light in my eyes and said I could never hate myself again cause if I did, since HIS SPIRIT was in me, I would be hating HIM also.
我人生第一次觉得自己很美，也不再试图自杀。我有了去爱其他人的使命，以我不明白的方式让其他人知道亚呼赎阿是多么地爱他们，For the first time in my life, I thought I was pretty. Never again were there suicide attempts, I had a purpose and that was to Love people, in a way I never knew, and make sure people know how much YAHUSHUA loves them,
让他们把自己的生命交给亚呼赎阿、得到神的拯救、成为圣洁的子民、并被如阿克．哈．古德西充满。and how to give their lives to YAHUSHUA and get saved, sanctified, filled with the HOLY GHOST.
这是将近三十年前的事了，而我骨头里的火却只是越烧越热，我对主亚呼赎阿的热诚没有极限，我爱亚呼赎阿，祂是我高于一切的真爱。That was nearly 30 years ago, and the fire in my bones just got hotter, my zeal for my LORD YAHUSHUA knows no limits. I love YAHUSHUA and HE is my ONE and ONLY TRUE LOVE ABOVE ALL ELSE.
我最强烈的渴望是我在活着的每一天都能服事祂，尽我的全力帮助别人，也以别人未曾帮助过我的方式帮助他们。My main desire is to serve HIM all the days of my life...to help people any way I can, in ways no one ever helped me.
在他们需要的时候陪在他们的身边，安慰那些属于亚呼赎阿，支离破碎、遭受虐待的肢体，让他们知道是魔鬼在击打他们，而不是亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克。To be there and comfort the broken abused body of YAHUSHUA and let them know it's the devil that is beating up on them, NOT YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
神多次使用我的见证阻止人们自杀，他们最后获得了拯救。甚至是我在认识亚呼赎阿之前试图自杀的经历也有了用途！Many times GOD has used me to stop men and women from killing themselves, as I share my testimony. They end up getting saved, and even my suicide attempts (before I knew YAHUSHUA) served a purpose.
我的呼召是凭着如阿克．哈．古德西的恩膏权柄，去传亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的福音。我的目标是见证成千上万的人得救、成圣、并被如阿克．哈．古德西的大能充满！I am called to minister the gospel of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH with the anointing power of the HOLY GHOST. My goal is to see millions saved, sanctified, and filled with HOLY GHOST manifested power.
我努力顺服亚呼赎阿，把祂放在我生命中各方面的首位。我爱慕祂也敬拜祂，把祂放在我私人生活以及事工的首位， I strive to obey YAHUSHUAand put HIM first in my life in every way. I love and worship HIM and keep HIM first in my private life, and ministry, 尽我所能去接触和帮助亚呼赎阿的肢体：那些受虐待的、被殴打的、感到被遗弃的、不被人爱、被其他人拒绝的人，并向他们证明亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克是真的爱他们！doing all I can to reach the abused, beaten, feeling forsaken, and unloved, rejected, body of YAHUSHUA... to prove YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH really does love them,
因为祂为他们死去并在第三天复活！就算是只让一个人接受祂，亚呼赎阿也会再次回到十字架上为这一个人受苦。我想要他们知道，神的话是不会说谎的。我想要去教导他们，为他们代祷，更重要的是我想要去爱他们。
and died and arose on the third day and HE would have done the same thing if it had only been ONE person who accepted HIM.
I want them to know the Word of YAHUVEH can't lie, and teach them, and pray with them, and most of all, love them.
我总尽力聆听如阿克．哈．古德西甜蜜的声音，并因为她使用这个破碎的器皿而深感荣幸，她使用我带领失落的灵魂归向亚呼赎阿，裹好他们的伤处，向他们证明亚呼赎阿还活着也还在掌权！I have tried hard to always hear the Sweet HOLY SPIRIT'S voice and feel privileged when SHE uses this broken vessel of clay to bring the lost to YAHUSHUA, and bind up their wounds, proving to them YAHUSHUA is alive and still Reigns,
祂爱我们，也在乎所有我们关心的事。
and HE Loves Us, and cares about anything we care about.
我想被祂们使用，为亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克带来颂赞、尊贵和荣耀，使众灵魂得以奉靠亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的圣名、话语和宝血，被祂拯救并被医治！
I want to be used to bring YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH praise, honor, and glory as we see souls saved, delivered, healed, through the NAME, Word, and BLOOD of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH,
以此证明神能奉靠亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的圣名，成就所有的事情！当我在传道时，我期待奇迹的发生，并把荣耀归给亚呼赎阿。
proving GOD really can do all things through YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH that strengthens me. When I minister I expect miracles, and get them for YAHUSHUA'S glory.
我的生命在这三十年间被大大的改变，但神给我的呼召还是没变。如果我过去没发生这些事的话，My life has changed much in these nearly 30 years but the calling has not.
或许在传道时就不会这样火热了。我遭受了许多痛苦，这也帮助了我与其他人产生共鸣，了解他们的痛苦。Perhaps if my life had not been what it has been, I would not have the compassion I have when I minister and there are few shoes that I have NOT walked in so I can identify with their pain.
亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克事我的主，也是我的救主，我想把我的神所交给我的事教给其他人，使他们得以向其他人传扬我们所服事的神的奇妙作为！YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH is my LORD and SAVIOR and I want to teach others what GOD has taught me, so they can teach others the awesome wonder of the GOD we serve.
神给我的呼召是向人传福音，我已经被祂使用了很多、很多年了，让我的生命有了价值，带领失落的灵魂归向亚呼赎阿。The calling GOD has placed on my life is that of evangelist, which I have been for many, many years, making my life worth something of value, using it to bring the lost to YAHUSHUA. For many years,
我曾经是一位被主使用的平信徒牧师，现在我的呼召是要作为一位国际性的牧师，我是一位被按立的牧师和先知，也是一位属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的新娘，I have been a lay pastor where the LORD has used me to minister. Now international minister and ordained pastor, office of prophet and bride of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
依靠如阿克．哈．古德西的恩赐成为获得男女的渔人，向他们教导经文的道理，辅导众人。A fisher of men and women, and teach the word, and counsel using the gifts of the HOLY SPIRIT.
我被神所祝福，得着了预言的恩赐，这个事工被神迹、奇事、异能充满，为亚呼赎阿带来了荣耀！I have also been blessed with prophetic gifts. And signs, wonders and miracles have followed this ministry for YAHUSHUA'S glory,
没有亚呼赎阿我就什么也不是！为子民解除了锁链、枷锁、使他们从奴役的束缚中得自由的，是祂的如阿克．哈．古德西的恩膏！cause I am nothing without YAHUSHUA. It's HIS HOLY SPIRIT'S anointing that breaks the shackles, yokes, and bondage's off HIS people.
我是一名女人，曾因为我的金发、脸上所画的妆、穿裤子等外表的穿着被人论断。一些牧师甚至跟我说过，我不能在他们的教会传道，除非我把妆卸了！I am a woman and I have been judged for my blonde hair, makeup, slacks... outward appearance. Some ministers have even said I wasn't allowed to minister in their churches till I had no makeup on!
我非常感激主让我知道，女人最重要的不是皮肤的洁净（无论她是不是有化妆还是擦了睫毛膏），最重要的是她心灵的洁净！我的心在将近三十年前被洁净了，也一直被亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的宝血洁净。
I am grateful the LORD showed me it's not the cleanliness of a woman's skin (whether she has makeup and mascara on), but the cleanliness of her HEART!
My heart was cleansed nearly 30 years ago and still is cleansed with the Cleansing Blood of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
我发现最恶毒的毁谤、缺乏爱的表现，都是来自教会讲台的背后，来自那些嫉妒强大恩膏和属灵恩赐的牧师们。他们垂涎来自神的恩赐，I have found the worst abuse and lack of love comes from behind the pulpits, jealous for the strong anointing, and gifts....covetousness;
也有许多牧师不相信神会使用女先知的口说话，特别是使用女性作为牧师传道。and many pastors don't believe GOD speaks out of women prophets or in a woman ministering, especially as a pastor.
但我继续做我被呼召要做的事，神会继续使用我来荣耀亚呼赎阿。祂派我接触人们而不是牧师。But I continue to do what I have been called to do, and HE continues to use me for YAHUSHUA'S glory. I am sent to the people and NOT to the Pastors.
这些人总是以爱接待我，我试着原谅牧师们，不让自己感到受伤，我会让神审判祂们，让他们从错误中学习。The people always receive me in love and I try not to be hurt and forgive the pastors who have treated me so terribly.！I will let GOD be their judge and let them learn from their mistakes.
因此，我拒绝因人的外表或肤色论断他们，黑人牧师因为我是白人而憎恨我。Instead, I refuse to judge people by their outward appearances, color of skin, for black pastors have resented me cause I am so white.
我觉得这是神的幽默，让我成为撒但最惧怕的一位被如阿克．哈．古德西充满的牧师！我同时也是一位福音作曲家和歌手。 I think it's GOD'S sense of humor, making me what satan fears the most... a HOLY SPIRIT filled Pastor! Also a gospel songwriter and singer.
撒但努力试着要毁灭我，但是这只让被压碎的葡萄以新方式产出新酒，就是被恩膏的得救歌曲！satan tried so hard to destroy me, but this only produced crushing of the grapes which brought forth NEW WINE in the form of delivering, anointed songs.
看吧！"我们晓得万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按祂旨意被召的人！"（罗8:28）See? All things do truly work together for good to those who love GOD, and are called according to HIS PURPOSE.
亚呼赎阿知道最后会得胜的是祂，证明我透过我的主亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克是得胜有余的！YAHUSHUA knew in the end HE would win, thereby proving I am more then a conqueror through YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH my LORD!
我相信我出生的唯一一个目的，就是要成为我现在的样子，成为一位被恩膏的仆人、门徒、万王之王和万主之主亚呼赎阿的孩子！还有什么比这更高的呼召呢？我想是没有的。I believe the only purpose in my life was to be what I am now. An anointed servant, disciple, and child of the KING of Kings and LORD of Lords! YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH. Is there any higher calling than this? I think NOT!
我是一个破碎的器皿，但却是属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的一位强大勇士。我被神呼召去向世界的四个角落，向各族、各方、各民传扬福音。
A broken vessel of clay but a mighty warrior for YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH, I am called to preach the Gospel to the four corners of the earth; to all races, kindred, and tongues.
神告诉我，在我看人时，他们的肤色是不重要的，我只要看见他们是红色的，被亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克，我们的弥赛亚亚呼赎阿的宝血覆盖住！GOD has shown me the color of the skin is not important when I see people I only see if they are RED, covered in the shed Blood of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH! OUR YAHUSHUA MESSIAH!
我被拣选成为多个教会的牧师，我总是努力聆听我们的主、救主亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的声音。遵行祂那完美的旨意，以达到祂创造我的目的。
I have been chosen to be pastor over many churches.
Please pray for me that I will always hear the voice of our LORD and SAVIOR YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH and do HIS perfect will, accomplishing what HE created me for.
我曾被神告知我永远不会离开这个事工，因为这是我的身分。我是一个属于亚哈威神的破碎器皿，但却是属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的一位强大勇士！
I was told I can never lay down this ministry for it is my identity, who I am is a broken vessel of GOD YAHUVEH but a mighty warrior for YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH (YAHUSHUA MESSIAH)
使徒以莉莎法．以利亚呼
Apostle Elisheva Sherrie Elijah (Eliyahu).
以莉莎法·以利亚呼的见证
Elisheva Eliyahu Testimony
我活得并不是很轻松，但是我的主亚呼赎阿跟我说过， “不要为妳的过去感到羞耻，但要借着妳过去的经历，把荣耀归给亚呼赎阿，为祂作见证带领灵魂归向亚呼赎阿。” My life has not been an easy one, but the LORD YAHUSHUA gave me a word and HE said, “Be not ashamed of your past but use it for YAHUSHUA'S glory to be a witness for HIM, bringing souls to YAHUSHUA.” 我从未体验母亲或父亲的爱，亦或兄弟姊妹、阿姨叔叔、表亲或祖父母的爱。I have never known a mother's or father's love, or that of a sister or brother, aunt or uncle, cousin, or grandma, and grandpa.
我在这个世上一直都非常孤独，但我知道神是存在的，而亚呼赎阿则是一个两千多年在各各他山死去的某人。I have suffered much loneliness in my life, but I knew there was a GOD and YAHUSHUA...that HE was someone that died 2,000 years ago at Calvary. 没有人告诉我祂可以成为我最好的朋友，或告诉我祂的圣灵可以住在我里面，又或是我不需要变得完美才能得到亚呼赎阿的爱。No one ever told me HE could be my best friend and HIS HOLY SPIRIT would live in me or that I didn't have to be perfect for YAHUSHUA to love me. 我常常被论断，因为我什么人也不是。我没有家人，有的只是一个会虐待我、忽视我、试图谋杀我而被送进监狱里去的母亲。I was judged because I was a nobody in this world, no family, and a mother that was sent to jail for child abuse and child neglect and attempted murder on me.
我被寄养家庭扔来扔去，我在那时深怕不顺服他们。我试著成为每个人想要的样子，但又觉得我不属于任何地方。I was thrown from one foster home to another, afraid to disobey, and trying to be everything everyone wanted me to be, but always feeling like I didn't belong anywhere. 当每个新的寄养家庭失去一开始的新鲜感时，我就成了一个在星期五被社工捡起的垃圾。我妈以前常说我不值得任何人来爱我。As soon as the newness wore off at the foster homes, I was discarded like the garbage on Friday, picked up by a social case worker. My mom always said I was not worthy of anyone to love me or care.
我曾是那颗带其他人一起腐烂的 “烂苹果” 。
I was the rotten apple that spoiled the rest.
我从孩时就受过母亲的丈夫们、男朋友们、继兄们的性虐待、性骚扰、也被强奸过，当然也包括她。她恨我，我记得她从未抱过我。I was sexually abused, molested, raped as a child by my mother's ex-husbands, boyfriends, step-brothers, and of course, by her. She hated me and never so much as put her arms around me that I can remember.
我从很小的时候，就学到不要相信任何人。我在很小的时候，就讨厌我自己和我的生命。我在小时候多次试图自杀，或走在飞梭的车前。我在八岁时服药过量。 I learned very young not to trust anyone. I learned very young that I hated myself and life. I attempted suicide many times while still a young child, walking in front of moving cars, overdosing pills at the age of 8.
我受过很多的伤害。在我十岁的时候，我母亲的男朋友有一个侄子，之后他成了我的前夫。他的控制欲很强、冷淡又疏远，甚至大我很多岁。Much damage had been done to me, so at the age of 10, my mother's boyfriend had a nephew and introduced my ex-husband, who was very controlling, cold, distant and much older than me.我母亲想要把我扔掉，因为我是她越来越老的证明。My mother wanted to get rid of me; I was a constant reminder she was getting older as I got older.
我从她的身边被带走，成了受法庭直接监护的儿童。因为他们不知道要拿我怎么办，所以我就在很年轻的时候就结了婚。I was taken from her and became a ward of the court and because they didn't know what else to do with me, I married at a very young age. 我的前夫成了我的父亲，也因为我们年龄上的差别，他在每件事情上都支配了我，我就像一件他拥有的物品，不知爱是何物，在身心灵上受到了比从前更严重的伤害和性虐待。 My ex-husband became my father, and because of the age difference, he totally dominated me in every way, yet I was a possession not knowing love, only abuse in a worse form, both mentally and physically, sexually.
长话短说，我在结婚第一周的时候曾经打算自杀，因为他有了外遇。这就是我接下来六年的生活，并在流产、尝试自杀、崩溃之间流离，直到我找到了亚呼赎阿──或者应该说是亚呼赎阿找到了我。I won't go into details but the first week we were married, I attempted suicide because he committed adultery. After that (between miscarriages, suicide attempts, and breakdowns), that was my life for 6 years till I found YAHUSHUA.... or I should say YAHUSHUA found me.
我最后一次试图自杀，是因为我的前夫又有了外遇。在他说他不会再回来后，我吞了一瓶速可眠（100毫克）。这是我最濒临死亡的体验，我的灵魂甚至出了窍。The last suicide attempt, I had taken a bottle of Seconal (100mgs) after my ex-husband had cheated on me once again and said he wasn't coming back. I came the closest I ever came to dying... even had an out of body experience.
当时我躺着等死，作了以下的祷告： “亚呼赎阿，告诉我为什么你不在把我丢进地狱前爱我？请在我临死前送个人来握着我的手。” I won't go into that but I will say I prayed while I lay dying and said quote, “YAHUSHUA, just tell me why YOU didn't love me before YOU throw me into Hell? Please just send someone to hold my hand while I am dying.”
我永远都不会忘记这个祷告。我在那里从中午躺到午夜，这还是我生日的三天前。在清醒和昏迷之间，清醒的时候我只会呕吐，然后躺在我的呕吐物中继续昏迷。 I will never forget that prayer cause I lay there from noon till midnight, three days from my birthday, between consciousness and unconsciousness, only reviving long enough to vomit, and lay in my vomit as I passed out again.
至今没有人知道警察是怎么找到我的！那是个奇迹！他们破门而入，而亚呼赎阿一直都在那里回答我的祷告。虽然我并不知道，但祂握住了我的手。How anyone found me NO ONE understands to this day! It was a miracle but the police broke down the door, and YAHUSHUA was there all along answering my prayer, holding my hand though I did not know it. 我被放在72小时的特别监护室中，但除了护士以外没有人来看我。我没有访客，甚至连我的前夫也非常地生气，他拒绝来探望我，他说他不得不为我的医疗费而工作。I was put in intensive care and 72 hour round the clock watch, but no one was there to watch me, except nurses.
No visitors; even my ex-husband was angry and refused to visit me, saying he had to work to pay the hospital bill I caused. 我没有留下自杀遗言，所以我的前夫强迫医院把我交给他。我当时甚至还未成年。I didn't leave a suicide note, so my ex-husband forced the hospital to release me to his custody. I was still underage.
我回家的那一天是我的生日，四月四日，那本来应该是我会被埋葬的日子，那天也是复活节。When I came home, it was on my birthday April 4, the day I should have been buried. It was Easter time also.我心碎了，没有人在乎那天是我的生日。我试图在我出院的当天自杀，但是我的前夫把枪拿走了。I was so heartbroken; no one cared it was my birthday. I tried to take my life the day I was released from hospital but my ex-husband took the gun away.
一个急诊医生告诉我， “当妳下次试图自杀的时候，如果想死得快就要站在火车前面，身体会被撞得碎烂，没人可以捡起完整的部份” 。我相信是撒但把这个医生派到了我的身边来。 I had an ER doctor who told me the next time I wanted to kill myself, do it right and walk in front of a train where no one will be able to pick up the pieces. I am convinced that satan sent that doctor to me.
我在一年后记起了那个医生的话，我们刚好住在郊外的火车轨道附近，于是我打算照着他的话做。但是亚呼赎阿却有其他的计划。One year later, I remembered that doctor's words and that's what I intended to do since we lived out in the country by the railroad tracks. But instead YAHUSHUA had other plans.
我打算自杀的当晚，我前夫的一个朋友给我打了个电话（她和他一起长大的，后来在假装领他归向主时与他通奸），她邀请我去参加五旬节教会，这还是我的第一次。A friend of my ex-husband (a lady he knew and grew up with, and later committed adultery with while she pretended to lead him to the LORD) called me on the phone the night I planned on killing myself and invited me to my first Pentecostal church.
我进去教会跟神说再见，猜想祂大概会在那里。I went to say goodbye to GOD, figuring maybe HE would be there. 但相反的，牧师被感动，说了 “知识的言语” 。他说有人想要自杀，但耶稣〔亚呼赎阿〕想跟那个人说 “不要这么做！祂爱那个人，想要为自己的荣耀使用他！” Instead, the preacher gave a word of knowledge and talked about someone who planned on killing themself and telling that person, “YAHUSHUA said don't do it!” , HE loved that person, and wanted to use them for HIS glory.
牧师问那个人是谁，要他们走到前面来，把他们的生命交给亚呼赎阿。我就这么做了！然后他说还未得着受圣灵洗礼凭据的方言恩赐的人请举起手来。He asked who that person was and to come forward and give their life to YAHUSHUA. I DID! Then he asked who didn't have the baptism of the HOLY GHOST with evidence of speaking in tongues to raise their hand. 我举起我的手说： “我不知道那是什么，不过如果是亚呼赎阿所赐下的恩赐的话，我就想要那种恩赐！” I raised my hand and said “I don't know what it is but if it's from YAHUSHUA, I want it!”
哇，我真的得到了！亚呼赎阿以光明开了我的眼，说我不能再恨自己了，因为祂的圣灵已经在我里面居住了，如果我恨自己的话，也代表我恨祂。Boy, did I get it! YAHUSHUA showed me a light in my eyes and said I could never hate myself again cause if I did, since HIS SPIRIT was in me, I would be hating HIM also.
我人生第一次觉得自己很美，也不再试图自杀。我有了去爱其他人的使命，以我不明白的方式让其他人知道亚呼赎阿是多么地爱他们，For the first time in my life, I thought I was pretty. Never again were there suicide attempts, I had a purpose and that was to Love people, in a way I never knew, and make sure people know how much YAHUSHUA loves them, 让他们把自己的生命交给亚呼赎阿、得到神的拯救、成为圣洁的子民、并被如阿克．哈．古德西充满。and how to give their lives to YAHUSHUA and get saved, sanctified, filled with the HOLY GHOST.
这是将近三十年前的事了，而我骨头里的火却只是越烧越热，我对主亚呼赎阿的热诚没有极限，我爱亚呼赎阿，祂是我高于一切的真爱。That was nearly 30 years ago, and the fire in my bones just got hotter, my zeal for my LORD YAHUSHUA knows no limits. I love YAHUSHUA and HE is my ONE and ONLY TRUE LOVE ABOVE ALL ELSE. 我最强烈的渴望是我在活着的每一天都能服事祂，尽我的全力帮助别人，也以别人未曾帮助过我的方式帮助他们。My main desire is to serve HIM all the days of my life...to help people any way I can, in ways no one ever helped me.
在他们需要的时候陪在他们的身边，安慰那些属于亚呼赎阿，支离破碎、遭受虐待的肢体，让他们知道是魔鬼在击打他们，而不是亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克。To be there and comfort the broken abused body of YAHUSHUA and let them know it's the devil that is beating up on them, NOT YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
神多次使用我的见证阻止人们自杀，他们最后获得了拯救。甚至是我在认识亚呼赎阿之前试图自杀的经历也有了用途！Many times GOD has used me to stop men and women from killing themselves, as I share my testimony. They end up getting saved, and even my suicide attempts (before I knew YAHUSHUA) served a purpose.
我的呼召是凭着如阿克．哈．古德西的恩膏权柄，去传亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的福音。我的目标是见证成千上万的人得救、成圣、并被如阿克．哈．古德西的大能充满！I am called to minister the gospel of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH with the anointing power of the HOLY GHOST. My goal is to see millions saved, sanctified, and filled with HOLY GHOST manifested power.
我努力顺服亚呼赎阿，把祂放在我生命中各方面的首位。我爱慕祂也敬拜祂，把祂放在我私人生活以及事工的首位， I strive to obey YAHUSHUAand put HIM first in my life in every way. I love and worship HIM and keep HIM first in my private life, and ministry, 尽我所能去接触和帮助亚呼赎阿的肢体：那些受虐待的、被殴打的、感到被遗弃的、不被人爱、被其他人拒绝的人，并向他们证明亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克是真的爱他们！doing all I can to reach the abused, beaten, feeling forsaken, and unloved, rejected, body of YAHUSHUA... to prove YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH really does love them, 因为祂为他们死去并在第三天复活！就算是只让一个人接受祂，亚呼赎阿也会再次回到十字架上为这一个人受苦。and died and arose on the third day and HE would have done the same thing if it had only been ONE person who accepted HIM. 我想要他们知道，神的话是不会说谎的。我想要去教导他们，为他们代祷，更重要的是我想要去爱他们。 I want them to know the Word of YAHUVEH can't lie, and teach them, and pray with them, and most of all, love them.
我总尽力聆听如阿克．哈．古德西甜蜜的声音，并因为她使用这个破碎的器皿而深感荣幸，她使用我带领失落的灵魂归向亚呼赎阿，裹好他们的伤处，向他们证明亚呼赎阿还活着也还在掌权！I have tried hard to always hear the Sweet HOLY SPIRIT'S voice and feel privileged when SHE uses this broken vessel of clay to bring the lost to YAHUSHUA, and bind up their wounds, proving to them YAHUSHUA is alive and still Reigns, 祂爱我们，也在乎所有我们关心的事。 and HE Loves Us, and cares about anything we care about.
我想被祂们使用，为亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克带来颂赞、尊贵和荣耀，使众灵魂得以奉靠亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的圣名、话语和宝血，被祂拯救并被医治！I want to be used to bring YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH praise, honor, and glory as we see souls saved, delivered, healed, through the NAME, Word, and BLOOD of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH, 以此证明神能奉靠亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的圣名，成就所有的事情！当我在传道时，我期待奇迹的发生，并把荣耀归给亚呼赎阿。proving GOD really can do all things through YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH that strengthens me. When I minister I expect miracles, and get them for YAHUSHUA'S glory.
我的生命在这三十年间被大大的改变，但神给我的呼召还是没变。如果我过去没发生这些事的话，My life has changed much in these nearly 30 years but the calling has not. 或许在传道时就不会这样火热了。我遭受了许多痛苦，这也帮助了我与其他人产生共鸣，了解他们的痛苦。Perhaps if my life had not been what it has been, I would not have the compassion I have when I minister and there are few shoes that I have NOT walked in so I can identify with their pain. 亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克事我的主，也是我的救主，我想把我的神所交给我的事教给其他人，使他们得以向其他人传扬我们所服事的神的奇妙作为！YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH is my LORD and SAVIOR and I want to teach others what GOD has taught me, so they can teach others the awesome wonder of the GOD we serve.
神给我的呼召是向人传福音，我已经被祂使用了很多、很多年了，让我的生命有了价值，带领失落的灵魂归向亚呼赎阿。The calling GOD has placed on my life is that of evangelist, which I have been for many, many years, making my life worth something of value, using it to bring the lost to YAHUSHUA. For many years, 我曾经是一位被主使用的平信徒牧师，现在我的呼召是要作为一位国际性的牧师，我是一位被按立的牧师和先知，也是一位属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的新娘，I have been a lay pastor where the LORD has used me to minister. Now international minister and ordained pastor, office of prophet and bride of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
依靠如阿克．哈．古德西的恩赐成为获得男女的渔人，向他们教导经文的道理，辅导众人。A fisher of men and women, and teach the word, and counsel using the gifts of the HOLY SPIRIT. 我被神所祝福，得着了预言的恩赐，这个事工被神迹、奇事、异能充满，为亚呼赎阿带来了荣耀！I have also been blessed with prophetic gifts. And signs, wonders and miracles have followed this ministry for YAHUSHUA'S glory, 没有亚呼赎阿我就什么也不是！为子民解除了锁链、枷锁、使他们从奴役的束缚中得自由的，是祂的如阿克．哈．古德西的恩膏！cause I am nothing without YAHUSHUA. It's HIS HOLY SPIRIT'S anointing that breaks the shackles, yokes, and bondage's off HIS people.
我是一名女人，曾因为我的金发、脸上所画的妆、穿裤子等外表的穿着被人论断。一些牧师甚至跟我说过，我不能在他们的教会传道，除非我把妆卸了！I am a woman and I have been judged for my blonde hair, makeup, slacks... outward appearance. Some ministers have even said I wasn't allowed to minister in their churches till I had no makeup on! 我非常感激主让我知道，女人最重要的不是皮肤的洁净（无论她是不是有化妆还是擦了睫毛膏），最重要的是她心灵的洁净！I am grateful the LORD showed me it's not the cleanliness of a woman's skin (whether she has makeup and mascara on), but the cleanliness of her HEART! 我的心在将近三十年前被洁净了，也一直被亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的宝血洁净。My heart was cleansed nearly 30 years ago and still is cleansed with the Cleansing Blood of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH.
我发现最恶毒的毁谤、缺乏爱的表现，都是来自教会讲台的背后，来自那些嫉妒强大恩膏和属灵恩赐的牧师们。他们垂涎来自神的恩赐，I have found the worst abuse and lack of love comes from behind the pulpits, jealous for the strong anointing, and gifts....covetousness; 也有许多牧师不相信神会使用女先知的口说话，特别是使用女性作为牧师传道。and many pastors don't believe GOD speaks out of women prophets or in a woman ministering, especially as a pastor.
但我继续做我被呼召要做的事，神会继续使用我来荣耀亚呼赎阿。祂派我接触人们而不是牧师。But I continue to do what I have been called to do, and HE continues to use me for YAHUSHUA'S glory. I am sent to the people and NOT to the Pastors. 这些人总是以爱接待我，我试着原谅牧师们，不让自己感到受伤，我会让神审判祂们，让他们从错误中学习。The people always receive me in love and I try not to be hurt and forgive the pastors who have treated me so terribly.！I will let GOD be their judge and let them learn from their mistakes.
因此，我拒绝因人的外表或肤色论断他们，黑人牧师因为我是白人而憎恨我。Instead, I refuse to judge people by their outward appearances, color of skin, for black pastors have resented me cause I am so white. 我觉得这是神的幽默，让我成为撒但最惧怕的一位被如阿克．哈．古德西充满的牧师！我同时也是一位福音作曲家和歌手。 I think it's GOD'S sense of humor, making me what satan fears the most... a HOLY SPIRIT filled Pastor! Also a gospel songwriter and singer.
撒但努力试着要毁灭我，但是这只让被压碎的葡萄以新方式产出新酒，就是被恩膏的得救歌曲！satan tried so hard to destroy me, but this only produced crushing of the grapes which brought forth NEW WINE in the form of delivering, anointed songs. 看吧！“们晓得万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按祂旨意被召的人！”（罗8:28）See? All things do truly work together for good to those who love GOD, and are called according to HIS PURPOSE. 亚呼赎阿知道最后会得胜的是祂，证明我透过我的主亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克是得胜有余的！YAHUSHUA knew in the end HE would win, thereby proving I am more then a conqueror through YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH my LORD!
我相信我出生的唯一一个目的，就是要成为我现在的样子，成为一位被恩膏的仆人、门徒、万王之王和万主之主亚呼赎阿的孩子！还有什么比这更高的呼召呢？我想是没有的。I believe the only purpose in my life was to be what I am now. An anointed servant, disciple, and child of the KING of Kings and LORD of Lords! YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH. Is there any higher calling than this? I think NOT!
我是一个破碎的器皿，但却是属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的一位强大勇士。我被神呼召去向世界的四个角落，向各族、各方、各民传扬福音。A broken vessel of clay but a mighty warrior for YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH, I am called to preach the Gospel to the four corners of the earth; to all races, kindred, and tongues. 神告诉我，在我看人时，他们的肤色是不重要的，我只要看见他们是红色的，被亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克，我们的弥赛亚亚呼赎阿的宝血覆盖住！GOD has shown me the color of the skin is not important when I see people I only see if they are RED, covered in the shed Blood of YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH! OUR YAHUSHUA MESSIAH!
我被拣选成为多个教会的牧师，我总是努力聆听我们的主、救主亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的声音。遵行祂那完美的旨意，以达到祂创造我的目的。 I have been chosen to be pastor over many churches. Please pray for me that I will always hear the voice of our LORD and SAVIOR YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH and do HIS perfect will, accomplishing what HE created me for.
我曾被神告知我永远不会离开这个事工，因为这是我的身分。我是一个属于亚哈威神的破碎器皿，但却是属于亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克的一位强大勇士！ I was told I can never lay down this ministry for it is my identity, who I am is a broken vessel of GOD YAHUVEH but a mighty warrior for YAHUSHUA Ha MASHIACH (YAHUSHUA MESSIAH)
使徒以莉莎法．以利亚呼
Apostle Elisheva Sherrie Elijah (Eliyahu).
我（以莉莎法）面对面看见了亚呼赎阿.哈.玛西阿克！
I Saw YAHUSHUA, Face to Face!
于1987年12月24日，撰写于2014年12月24日
On December 24, 1987 – Written December 24, 2015
许多年前的今天，我算不清具体哪一年了，我就像古时的使徒那样看见过亚呼赎阿（耶稣的希伯来文圣名）！This day, more years ago than I’d rather count, I saw YAHUSHUA (Hebrew for JESUS) just as the apostles of old did!
我也被称为一位使徒，被派去传福音到地极——首先是犹太人，然后是外邦人。因为对于那些信的人来说，是救赎的大能！颂赞不是归于我。所有的颂赞，尊贵和荣耀都归给亚呼赎阿！I am also called an apostle, sent to take the gospel to the ends of the earth—first to the Jew and then the Gentile. For it is the power of SALVATION for those who believe! The praise is not mine. All praise, honor and glory to YAHUSHUA!
主亚呼赎阿探访过我好几次。有两次，我实际上看见了祂：祂向我显现了。I have had visitations from YAHUSHUA and two times, I’ve actually seen HIM; HE appeared to me. 虽然这已经是许多年前的事，这是第二次也是最近的一次：是在1987年12月24-25日，亚呼赎阿，我那时候称祂为耶稣基督，来到我面前，与我面对面相见。Though it’s already been many years, this was the second and most recent: On December 24/25, 1987 YAHUSHUA, WHO I called “JESUS CHRIST” came before me in a Face-to-face encounter.
我是犹太人出生，但我不是在一个循规蹈矩（或者任何一种宗教）的家庭里长大的。在那些日子里，我只知道这是圣诞节，自从知道了圣诞节的真相，我就再也不会把它当作是亚呼赎阿诞生的日子。I am Jewish by birth, but not raised in an observant (or any kind of religious) household. In those days, I only knew this as the Christmas season, which I no longer recognize as the birth of YAHUSHUA since learning the truth about Christmas. 在这许多年里，反而我学会了庆祝住棚节和光明节——来避开异教徒的方式，回到我的犹太根源，回到亚呼赎阿的方式。In these many years, I have learned to celebrate Sukkot & Hanukkah (the times of HIS real birth and conception) instead—to shun pagan ways, and return to my Jewish roots, to YAHUSHUA’S ways.
我很感激没有冒犯到祂——那时我在庆祝圣诞节，还相信那是一年中祂出生的时候。我很感激祂仍然来到我这里，尽管那时我从未听说过祂的希伯来文圣名。I am grateful it did not offend HIM that I was celebrating Christmas at that time and believed it was the time of the year that was HIS birth. I am grateful HE still came to me even though I never heard of HIS HEBREW NAME. 我们只要为我们被教导过的事负责。当然，时代在改变，知识在增长。We are only held accountable for what we have been taught. Of course times change and knowledge is increasing.
今晚，2015年十二月的满月将会在我们的天空里明亮照耀，恰巧是在圣诞节这天。亚是创造了月亮和周期的那位（创1:14-19）。Tonight, the full moon of December 2015 will shine brightly in our skies and it happens to fall on this anniversary of when I saw YAHUSHUA Face to face. YAH is the ONE WHO created the moon and the cycles. 仅仅因为邪恶的人决定使用月亮来行恶、施行秘术，并不意味着我们就必须专注在消极的或巫术上，取而代之我们能看看圣经。Just because evil ones decide to use the moon for evil, for occultism, doesn’t mean we have to focus on the negative or occult practices, but we can look at the Bible instead.
（创1:14-19神亚哈威说：“天上要有光体，可以分昼夜，作记号，定节令、日子、年岁，15并要发光在天空，普照在地上。”事就这样成了。Book of Genesis 14 And Elohim said, Let light sources be in the expanse of the heavens, to divide between the day and the night. And let them be for signs and for seasons4 , and for days and years. 15 And let them be for light sources in the expanse of the heavens, to give light on the earth. And it was so. 16于是神亚哈威造了两个大光，大的管昼，小的管夜，又造众星，17就把这些光摆列在天空，普照在地上，16 And Elohim made the two great light sources the great light to rule the day, and the small light and the stars to rule the night. 17 And Elohim set them in the expanse of the heavens, to give light on the earth, 18管理昼夜，分别明暗。神亚哈威看着是好的。19有晚上，有早晨，是第四日。）18 and to rule over the day and over the night; and to divide between the light and the darkness. And Elohim saw that it was good. 19 And there was evening, and there was morning, day four.
事实上，圣经历上的节日都是以看到新月来计算的！逾越节（正月亚笔月十四）、住棚节（七月提斯利月十五日）和普珥节（十二月亚达月十四日），这三个充满欢乐的圣经节日，都是在满月的时候到来！In fact the Holy days in Biblical times were counted by the sighting of the new moon! And Passover, Sukkot & Purim, three Biblical festivals full of JOY, come at the time of the full moon!
我凭信心相信，在这个对我而言非常特别的一天，在一年中最寒冷最黑暗的时刻，阿爸亚哈威也正在给我们这轮罕见的月亮，作为一个将要临到的祝福记号——来祝福祂的那些敬拜祂，努力服从祂的孩子们。亚呼赎阿必保护我们脱离作孽的人！I believe in faith that ABBA YAHUVEH is also giving us this rare moon on this date that’s so special to me and at the coldest and darkest time of year, as a sign of blessings to come—to HIS children who worship and strive to obey HIM. YAHUSHUA will protect us from the workers of iniquity!
不要只是沉湎于邪恶势力将要试图发送的负面信息上，而是要为亚创造了月亮和它的周期而欢喜快乐。在这难得的满月时刻，我期待着神迹！这也是在提别月禁食日（Asarah B'Tevet，提别月十日，这个日子是要纪念耶路撒冷开始遭到巴比伦帝国的围攻）——我们上次会众的禁食祷告——之后的第一个满月。Do not just dwell on the negative, what the evil ones try to send, but rejoice YAH created the moon and it’s cycles. I am expecting miracles during this time of this rare moon! It is also the first full moon after Asarah B’Tevet, when we did our last congregational fast.
只是在刚刚过去的2015年光明节期间，亚呼赎阿对我的灵说，去查一下1987年光明节的日期，我简直喜出望外！Only during this past Hanukkah 2015, did YAHUSHUA speak to my spirit to check the dates of Hanukkah 1987, and I am delighted! 按照传统犹太历，光明节的第一天是在12月15日-16日。然而，按照新月历，光明节应该是在12月16日-17日开始。That year on the traditional calendar, the first day of Hanukkah was December 15th/16th. And according to the crescent new moon, this would have begun December 16th/17th.
那就意味着祂实际上在八天后来到我这里的日期，是在1987年光明节快结束的时候，12月24日！That means when HE actually came to me eight days later, it was just at the end of Hanukkah 1987, December 24th!
当我读到那事的时候，我能够感觉到伊妈亚的，如阿克.哈.古德西（希伯来语对圣灵的称谓）的欢喜雀跃，当亚呼赎阿现在告诉我说：“我在光明节的时候来到你这里。”I could feel IMMAYAH’S, the RUACH HA KODESH’S (Hebrew for HOLY SPIRIT) leap of joy when I learned that, and as YAHUSHUA now tells me, “I came to you on Hanukkah.” 我仍然因这个新知识而欢喜，因为我亲自面对面看见了永恒的光，我们的亚呼赎阿！I am still rejoicing with this new knowledge because I had my own Face to face with the ETERNAL MENORAH LIGHT, our YAHUSHUA!
这是我的第一个光明节神迹！是一个医治和奇迹的时刻。我那时候甚至都不知道“Hanukkah光明节”这个词！It was my 1st Hanukkah miracle! It was a time of healing and miracles. And I didn’t even know the word “Hanukkah” at the time!我记得我睡觉的时候沮丧又担心，因为我生命中遭到的对待，以及我前夫和他母亲的嘲笑，她（前夫的母亲）现在在地狱里被折磨并燃烧着！ I remember I went to sleep depressed and worried because of the treats on my life and mockery of my X husband and mother-in law, now being tortured and burning in hell! （她的名字是玛丽.戈麦斯Mary Gomez，审判临到她了，我会在另外的时间说这事！是的，那是对所有仇敌的一个警告，尤其是对其中的一个。）(Her name was Mary Gomez and the judgement that befell her, I will tell another time! And YES, that’s a warning to all enemies and one in particular.)
当亚呼赎阿来探访我并叫醒我时，祂坐在床上垫着皮革的扶手边上。几年后，当我那虐待的前夫拆那张床的时候，有一块巨大的印记，好像是被火烧过一样。When YAHUSHUA visited me and awoke me, HE sat on the edge of the cushioned leather rail of the bed. And when my abusive, now ex, was taking apart the bed years later, there was a huge mark, as though it was burned by a fire! 我睡的那一侧的床边——就是亚呼赎阿坐的地方——是棕色的！我看到了。我的前夫也看到了。It was brown on the side of my bed where YAHUSHUA sat! I saw it. My ex saw it also.
现在我心里想：“这么神圣的事情……为什么我当时没有拍下一张照片？”哈哈！Now I think to myself, “Something so Holy….why didn’t I take a picture of it?” LOL!
这个见证不仅适用于光明节，但这是一个受创的时候，这也是部分的我生命的见证，我的见证已经好多年都没有更新过了。This testimony not only applies to Hanukkah, but this was a traumatic time and it’s also part of my life testimony, which hasn’t been updated in many years. 从那以后发生了很多事情，但这已经被其他人预言过了，我的人生会有一本自传，而且最终会在亚完美的时间里成为现实。So much has happened since that time, but it has been prophesied by others that there would be an autobiography of my life, which will eventually come to pass in YAH’S perfect timing.
尽管2015光明节的纪念日已经过去，但今天是世俗日历上的纪念日，2015年12月24日，这是自杀和抑郁的高峰期。Although Hanukkah 2015 has past, today is the anniversary on the secular calendar, December 24th 2015 and this is a time high in suicide and depression. “Now is the time to share this,” 亚呼赎阿说：“现在是分享这事的时候了，这会增强其他人的信心。”无论何时你们读到这篇见证，这都将给任何一个正在经历黑暗时期的人加增他们的信心。YAHUSHUA is saying, “It will increase others’ faith.” And whenever you read this, it will increase the faith of anyone going through dark times.
我也想我的信心被加增，所以最近我一直在祷告祂再次以这种方式来到我这里，让我能再次有这样的荣幸！我请求你们所有赞同圣灵全能风事工的人，请赞同我这个祷告。如果这是祂的旨意，祂就会来。I also want my faith increased, so lately I have been praying for HIM to come to me in this way again, to allow me this honor once again! I ask of all you who stand in agreement with AmightyWind Ministries, please stand in agreement with this prayer for me.如果不是，我仍然会说：“阿爸亚哈威和亚呼赎阿，愿祢们的旨意成全，而不是我的意愿！” If it is HIS will, HE will. If not, I still say, “YOUR will be done ABBA YAH & YAHUSHUA, not mine!”
我不知道为什么我现在被带领来写下所有这些事，但现在我知道了...I had no idea why I was led to write all of this now, but now I do…
通常我会觉得这是我非常隐私的事，亚呼赎阿的这次探访对我来说是非常神圣的经历。我以前从未在网站上张贴过这事，这只是出现在最近出版的一本书里，《圣灵（如阿克.哈.古德西）的奥秘》。Usually I am so private, and this visitation from YAHUSHUA is very sacred experience for me. I haven’t even posted this on the website before and it was only recently published in a book, Secrets of the HOLY SPIRIT (RUACH HA KODESH). 这段节选是书中包含的三次拜访中的第三次，在《亚呼赎阿向我显现（以及我人生中的尝试）》这篇文章里。This excerpt is the third of three visitations included there, in “YAHUSHUA HA MASHIACH Appears to Me (& Attempts on My Life)”.
眼中带着爱的浪潮Eyes with Ocean Waves of Love
1987年12月24日，在我最小的儿子出生的十天后，亚呼赎阿再次来看我！祂坐在我的床边，在我的小儿子出生后，我们的生命里出现了一个接一个的奇迹。On December 24, 1987, ten days after my youngest son was born, I was visited again and saw YAHUSHUA! HE sat on the edge of my bed. After my youngest was born, miracle after miracle occurred in our lives.
当我的小儿子九天大时，我开车去一个离家只有几条街远的商店。我跟我五岁的双胞胎儿子们一起出了门。这是我出院回家后的第一次出门。[…] When my youngest son was 9 days old I drove to the store which was only a few blocks away. My twin sons, who were 5 years old, went with me. It was the first time I had been out of the house since coming home from the hospital. 我真的很想出去，因为我邪恶的前夫的母亲来我们家，帮忙照顾我的小儿子。当她来时，这就像有两个仇敌在压制我。我做的事情没一件是对的，他们所做的全部就是嘲笑神和我所相信的。I really needed to get away because my evil ex-husband’s mother was visiting and helping care for my youngest. When she would visit it was like having two enemies at my throat. Nothing I could do was right and all they did was mock GOD and what I believed.
在我去商店的路上，发生了一件奇怪的事。我没有到我要去的离几条街区远的地方，却反而到了五十英哩外，印第安纳州加里（Gary）的一个贫民窟！我不知道我是怎么到那地方的。As I was going to the store, a strange thing happened. Instead of going a few blocks away, I ended up 50 miles away in a ghetto of Gary, Indiana. How I got there I do not know.看起来像是〔…〕接下来看到的是一个非洲裔美国人，我才发现我已经不在我住的城市了。直到今天，我仍然毫无头绪我是到那里的！我的双胞胎儿子们也不知道，只有亚呼赎阿知道那天到底发生了什么事情。 It seemed […] the next thing I knew was I was seeing African Americans and I realized I was not in our hometown anymore. To this day, I do not have a clue how I got there! My twin sons did not know either. Only YAHUSHUA knows what happened that day.
〔…〕我全部所知道的是，我给前夫打了电话要他来接我，因为我〔…〕不记得是怎么到那里的。我永远不会开到那边去的，因为我根本不知道要怎么才能到那里！我害怕去印第安纳州加里的市中心。[…] All I know is I called and asked him to come and get us because I had […] no memory of how I got there. I would never have driven there and I did not even know how to get there! I feared downtown Gary, Indiana.
我的前夫开车来接我，当然，我在车上听到的都是他这样的话：“妳不适合当个母亲──妳最好去看医生，因为〔…〕如果妳不去作检查的话就会死〔…〕”撒但的谎言又长又难听。My ex came and got me. Of course all I heard on the ride back was that I was “not fit to be a mother—you had better go to the doctor because […] you will die if you do not…” The lies of satan were long and lengthy.
我的前夫和他母亲都嘲笑我，他们诅咒我，说：“孩子们没有妳这种母亲会好很多！妳一定会死的！”He and my mother-in-law mocked me, cursed me and said, “The babies would be better off anyway without a mother like you! You will die!”
我们有一个特大号水床，床的围条是皮制的，我睡在一边，尽量离我的前夫远一点。我在祷告的时候睡着了，We had a king sized water bed with leather rails on it. I was sleeping on my side of the bed, as far away from my ex as I could get. I fell asleep praying.
我因感到被某个人以一种我从未体验过的爱凝视着而被唤醒了。我必须醒过来，看看到底是谁在这个房里，以如此强烈的爱凝视我、那爱唤醒了我！I was awakened with SOMEONE staring at me with such love as I had never felt before. I had to wake up to see WHO was in the room, WHOSE love was so strong for me that it awakened me!我知道那不是来自我前夫的爱，那么是谁呢？我睁开眼睛，在那里，在我水床的围条上坐着的，是我的主和救主，亚呼赎阿．哈．玛西阿克。在那时，我称祂为耶稣基督。 I knew it was not love from my ex. WHO was it? I opened my eyes and there, sitting on the rail of my waterbed, was my LORD & SAVIOR, YAHUSHUA HA MASHIACH, WHOM I called JESUS CHRIST at the time.
祂光芒四射！祂就跟我看到的基督画像一样，祂的头发并未触及祂的肩，光芒在祂的头周围很强烈，让祂的发色看起来很浅！祂的眼睛充满了如此强烈光和爱——就像汹涌的波涛一般冲刷着我。HE was radiant, glowing! HE looked like the pictures I had seen of HIM. HIS Hair barely touched HIS Shoulder and there was so much light all around HIS Head it made HIS Hair appear light in color! HIS Eyes were filled with so much light and love—it was like ocean waves washing over me. 祂的眼睛是蔚蓝色的。我无法说出祂穿的衣服是什么颜色，因为祂周围的光实在太亮眼了。祂坐在离我很近的水床框围条上。HIS Eyes appeared to be a shade of blue. I cannot say what color HE was wearing because the light was so bright all around HIM. HE sat very close to me on the rail of the waterbed.
亚呼赎阿跟我说话的时候，嘴唇没有动过，祂是以心电感应的方式跟我说话的。我能很清楚地听见祂的声音，这是祂的原话：“我很难過妳必须遭受这些苦。”YAHUSHUA never opened HIS Mouth when HE spoke to me. Instead HE spoke to my mind somehow telepathically. I could hear HIM clearly. HIS exact words were, “I am so sorry you have had to suffer like this.”
接着我告诉祂：“如果这世上每一个人肩并肩，一起跟我说耶稣〔我现在称呼祂为亚呼赎阿〕不爱我，我知道他们是在说谎！”我已亲眼看见了祂对我的爱。Then I told HIM, “If everyone in the world would stand back to back around the world and tell me that JESUS (the ONE I now call YAHUSHUA) doesn’t love me, I would know they are lying!” I have seen HIS love for me.我感受到了祂的爱。祂不仅是以这样的爱爱我，也以这样的爱去爱每一个把祂放在他们生命和爱的首位、并尽力顺服祂的人。 I have felt HIS love. Not only for me but for everyone that puts HIM first in their life and love and does their best to obey HIM.
接下来，我只知道祂消失了，然后我再次睡着了。当我醒来时，我毫无疑问地知道了。The next thing I knew HE disappeared and I fell back asleep. When I awoke I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt.
隔天，当我告诉双胞胎儿子们，当我说：“耶稣前来看我，坐在我的床上。”他们相信了我说的话，虽然他们才只有五岁。我邪恶的前夫嘲笑我。然而，我知道这是真的。When I told my twins the next day, even at the age of 5, they believed me when I said, “‘JESUS’ came and sat on my bed.” My evil ex mocked me. Yet this I know was real.
我同时也得到了亚呼赎阿确实向我显现的证明，在祂坐过的水床围条上，有一个大焦痕，像是三股火焰聚集在一起。这个焦痕对我而言，是确凿的证据，证实了亚呼赎阿确实亲自显现，在我的床上坐过！I also had proof. Where YAHUSHUA had sat on the rail of the bed, there was a big burn mark shaped like three flames of fire joined together. It was undisputed proof to me that the LORD YAHUSHUA had been physically present and sat on my bed. 我什至把这个焦痕指给我的前夫看，他承认他无法给出一个解释。I even showed the burn mark to my ex and he admitted he had no explanation for it.我觉得这是很讽刺的事，因为我前夫在这个水床上那么多次地试图在我睡着的时候杀我，甚至试图掐死我，而在那张水床上，亚呼赎阿，我们的玛西阿克，前来探访了我，就在1987年的12月24日的那个晚上。 I find it ironic how many times in that waterbed he had tried to kill me while I slept or attempting to strangle me and it was here, on that waterbed, YAHUSHUA our MASHIACH, had come to visit me on that night of December 24, 1987.
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